Mirror, Mirror, On The Wall . . . Who's The Fairest Of Them All?

I told you earlier that two summers ago, I spent the entire time telling myself that I loved myself, in an effort to reestablish myself.

Well, this summer (or rather, this year), I've got a new goal. I'm going to tell myself that I'm pretty every day and every time that I see other people. I truly believe that the mind has the power to change one's self and how others view you; so I'm putting it to the test. How often have you been told that if you think you're pretty, others will see it too? How about this, try exchanging the word "pretty" with "confident;" does it sound familiar now?

This sounds incredibly dorky, but I swear that it's going to be really difficult for me to do.

I mean, I have enough problems with talking to people in a voice that others can hear and respond back to, let alone standing up straight and going at the world full-throttle. But I'm going to make it happen. I decided this today, while walking down my little podunk street in the middle of my little town.

And of course, the other problem with this comes from the inability to allow myself to be pretty. In essence, I need to allow myself to be, regardless of the negative thoughts I have in my center. I need to be able to walk down the street without worrying how others are seeing me. In general, I'd like to have some kind of strength of personal nature that would accompany me and that others would be able to see and feel. As if, just when meeting me, people could say to themselves, "This person has character."

That's what I would like to have happen.

And these ideas, I have thought of on my own. I didn't get them from therapy, books or websites. These are my own perceptions of the world and how I need to fix myself in order that I might flow better in life.

Mine.